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Whether it's old pajama pants, a corset, a skirt, a sweater- I'll be able to use it. Big shirts? Holy pants? Transformed into dresses and skirts easily. 
holyfuck.
wednesday, I think.
my sister's boyfriend of four or so years got into a car accident.
he wasn't drinking, on drugs, or anything, had his seatbelt on. driving twentyfive miles per an hour.
flooded dirt road, full of potholes.
he swerved into a ditch, hit a tree, and the tree fell over and CRUSHED him.
the two friends that were with him suffered only a broken arm for one, and small scratches on the other for jumping into a thornbush getting out of the car.
one of them ran for help. the other tried to get justin out of the car.
thursday, i came home from work.
my sister had left a message saying justin was in the hospital and in bad shape.
i called one of my friends that was really close to him. she said he died, but they brought him back.
he had a broken arm, broken leg, broken rips, and his lungs were collapsing or something. brain was swollen.
sometime in the night, he needed to have surgery done cuz his lungs were filling up or something.
my sister was arranging to come home on the next available flight. she's in new jersey for college, but this is REALLY serious and she was about to get out for thanksgiving break anyway, so she bought tickets that night.
friday.
sat around reading most of the day, waiting for her to get home from the airport so we could go to the hospital and see him.
leila calls.
'don't bring briar to the hospital.'
'why?'
'he's gone.'
'huh? where is he? is he better?'
'no. he...he died.'
we still had to pick my sister up from the airport.
everyone knew but her.
we had to act normal, cuz his mom wanted to tell her. it's probably the last time i'll see her smile for a VERY long time.
we got to his house
she was slightly confused cuz she thought we'd go straight to the hospital.
then his mom told her
and she broke down.
it turns out they had plans to get engaged this christmas or earlier.
he was going to use the money he got from being sent to afghanistan to buy them a house.
he never even got to go to college. this past summer, we went to the citadel so he could go check it out.
and now he'll never get the chance to go.
his room- everything is just sitting there waiting for him to come home.
it FEELS like he's just gonna pop up.
but it's never gonna happen.
i hate this.
so much.
i wish it'd been me instead.
i never get into any kind of accident. i've never broken anything. i've never been in a car crash. i've only been severely sick twice in my life- once in fourth/fifth grade, and the past four months with mono.
my brother had to go to the hospital less than a month ago.
now justin's DEAD.
and i'm still perfectly healthy.
i wish it'd been me.
it would've been so much easier on everyone.
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I like seeing what other artists or artists-in-the-making can come up with using me, I hope that's alright. I know my camera is crappy and the pictures aren't high quality, but at the same time I take them knowing they're meant to be manipulated or used as a reference. Good manipulators know how to cut out backgrounds, touch up spots, and reduce noise and whatnot. It may take an extra few minutes, but what's art without some work put into it, right?
If you have a problem with my 'stock' feel free to note me, but I doubt I'll do anything about it. I won't be offended if you don't like it, I've had people tell me my makeup/hair/pose/whatever sucks before, and that's alright. I'll take it as critique if applicable, and whenever I get a decent camera, I'll keep it in mind.
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